Aren't they just most adoreable?

Oh,my I wanna hold a cub....

Jeez, are they really that small?

Randomness ....again

- I 've got my own room now
- I don't do anything whole day long (except for watching Big Bang Theory :P)
-I'm bored
-I feel lonely
-BUT my Spanish is getting better
- I want a friend =(

Hi

I'm back.
I decided to stop to feel so freaking sorry for myself .Things will just work out somehow,no need to worry too much about it.I do my stuff  , others do theirs and we all should just get along.

My spanish is getting better.I realized,that everyone is right ,and I really need to speak...but it doesn't seem to be that easy.

Since I'm here,I got a great interest for foods-altough I'm a disaster in the kitchen.Nowadays I want to make bento =) I've seen some adoreable pictures all around the web and I really like it.The best is that you can create crazy good things out of totally everyday ingredients

Colorful Panamanian nights

Pictures taken by me at the trip

I'm back

I'm back from the fair in Chitré,but my mood didn't change too much.I think it actually got worse.The trip itself was great .So great that all the way back I was thinking of only one thing: I don't want to leave,I don't want to go back there.A friend of mine thinks I should change family ...and now I'm really considering it...

Signs of life

Well, it's been a while since I last wrote here...not that I was that busy,it's just the usual laziness I guess.
Actually , I don't have musch to write about right now,I just wanted to give a sign that I'm still alive out here. At the weekend I'm going to a fair so next week I will be in a better mood I hope.I need this little freedom.I need it so much.I'm away from home for almost 3 months by now,I'm having cultural shock,I'm having enough.
But I will not give this up.I will not be a quitter. I will keep going on ,I will learn Spanish I'm not going home until 24th of June.(247 days)My family and me have just sacraficed too much for this I can not just run away .

Darren Shan

Okay,so on Tuesday I read the Cirque du Freak,yesterday I read The vampire's assistant, and today the Tunnels of Blood.Am I getting obsessed?

Cirque du Freak

Yesterday I read Darren Shan's Cirque du Freak.

Three words: I LOVE IT!

and what lies inside of you?

today life is nice...

...altough yesterday night was mostly like "please shut up,I want to sleep"and"God,I hate that dog , you touch my shoes again,and I bloody kill ya!".Actually,I was just thinking these.But after all,I woke up in the morning,and realized that I was relaxed and quite cheerful.And I was like that all day.So it was just a fine day.

I hope you had a nice day too

one day my knight will come

I am actually amazed by myself.I started to read this book today and I then I just kept reading and reading....until I finished it.344 pages in english in one afetrnoon.Not bad.

However,whatt really freaks me out is that I've read a book like this.I mean I don't really watch or read any romantic stuff.Altough I am indeed hoplessly romantic ,I don't like to hear about it.I don't like when my friends go crazy about their boyfriends/girlfriends.I don't like to see lovers walking hand in hand,kissing each other.Why? I guess I'm just bloody selfish and jealous ...

Still,this story has just stolen my heart for today.That's the age old tale of the princess and the knight that every girls holds in her heart...well,at least I do.I don't want no pampered prince on a white horse . I don't want no poetry or serenade.I want simple,honest words and actions...I want a knight with all the virtues...someone,who would fight for whatever he thinks is right...who would love me at all costs and would protect me from anything...even from myself.

Yeah,I want someone similar to Lochlan...
Oh,and Catarina:you're so damn lucky....

Ginger Snaps....

...because being a teenage girl is indeed like a curse...

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"No one ever thinks chicks do shit like this. A girl can only be a slut, bitch, tease or the virgin next door. We'll just coast on how the world works." (Ginger)

I freakin' love Ginger and Emily.It would be so cool to have friends like them.

If you've seen the trilogy,check out the OST ,too.It well worth it

the voice

I hear your voice on the wind
And I hear you call out my name…

‘Listen, my child!’ you say to me,
‘I am the Voice of your history,
Be not afraid – come follow me,
Answer my call and I’ll set you free.’

I am the Voice in the wind and the pouring rain,
I am the Voice of your hunger and pain;
I am the Voice that always is calling you,
I am the Voice – I will remain

I am the Voice in the fields when the summer’s gone,
The dance of the leaves when the autumn winds blow;
Ne’er do I sleep throughout all the cold winter long;
I am the force that in the springtime will grow.

I am the Voice of the past that will always be,
Filled with my sorrows and blood in my fields;
I am the Voice of the future…
Bring me your peace, bring me your peace, and my wounds they will heal

I am the Voice in the wind and the pouring rain,
I am the Voice of your hunger and pain;
I am the Voice that always is calling you,
I am the Voice

I am the Voice in the past that will always be
I am the Voice of your hunger and pain;
I am the Voice of the future…
I am the Voice… I am the Voice…I am the Voice… I am the Voice.

the beginning....

When I was small,I used to daydream about getting away from home , and living in the forest among wolves...

I was clearly unaware of the fact,that wolves had unfortunately died out in my country a long time ago...
Now I know it, and still , I keep having dreams of wolves...